Monday, March 28, 2011
Day 64 - A psychic for a psycho?
So I can't quite figure myself out. I've been running around in the same circle off and on for close to 4 years now. I should have won this battle long ago and been living the thin life, but instead I keep replaying like a broken record.. gee I'm unhappy in the 220's and afraid for my own health and well being, I should set goals....get under 200 and then I work hard and make it and then woo hoo! Time to celebrate. Then the next big goal, the 180's...ok got it. Then the next goal 179, ok! But it doesn't happen. WHY????? Why does 179 look to me just like this??
1 you just 7 are not gonna reach 9 this goal ever Stacey
So I get frustrated and pretty much give up and then have to start all over again. What is the matter with me? I've even gone to a psychic recently and asked if I have some deep-seeded emotional issues I'm not aware of that prevent me from doing this. She matter of factly said "No, you just have an oral fixation." Well now, thank you, that's very helpful...lovely. Thanks. Hmmm.....
Anyway. I'm not doing it again. I'm up in the 190s AGAIN right now and it's not getting any higher. Maybe instead of focusing on 179 I need to shift to staying in the 180's. 180 anything is certainly better than 220 anything, or 200 anything or 190 something. Fit in the 180's is even better. I think that's what I need to focus on. For some reason 179 is freaking me out so screw it! I'll stay in the damn 180's for awhile...
Fight the good fight my friends! :)