Day 90 - Happy Birthday to Me (aka the Project ends)

Good Morning and Happy Easter!

Today is the final day of the official Stacey Campbell Fitter or Fatter at 44 project.  I'm happy to report that although I'm not fitter, I'm not any fatter either (so that's something right?) but more importantly, I'm SMARTER when it comes to my battle of the bulge.

I learned so much in the last 90 days.  I've experienced emotional and now physical (I recently visited a podiatrist for Plantar Faciaitis, yeah it was fun) setbacks that weren't anticipated.  I've learned I'm an extremist when it comes to just about anything with an all or nothing, black or white mindset.  This is not a healthy way to think and makes overcoming 20+ years of being overweight like a bad science experiment.  Must have a strict plan to pursue my personal quest to pursue at all costs!  Obsessed!!  So obsessed that my goals can be unrealistic, my tactics self destructive to my emotional health.  Setting my self up for failure.

I've started therapy and am working to change my mindset and understand what some of my issues are.  Although we haven't focused specifically on weight and for that matter, never really intended to, some of the tools I'm learning can be applied in the weight loss arena as well. 

So my birthday will pass quietly today because that's how I wanted it this year.  A quiet day of reflection and to make a non-obsessive game plan for how I can make small changes in the future that will improve my health and fitness without letting it completely take over my entire life.   My goal is to be able to work on my "issues" in a more balanced and sustainable fashion.  Very small improvements over time while enjoying my life.

That sounds like a pretty good plan....